I want to be normal

I have felt really good this week, not sure it's that I know chemo is over or I've just been to busy to let it get to me. I still have a sore mouth and fatigue but in general I feel pretty good.

I had a mammogram on Friday and it looked great :) I was so relieved! I also have an appointment with the radiation oncologist on December 2nd. If all goes well I should start radiation on Dec 5th. I believe its 35 treatments, EVERYDAY for 6 weeks :) WOO HOO! Well, at least I won't feel sick anymore and maybe some hairs might start growing back.

I can't tell you how much I am ready to get back to normal and feel like me again....whatever that means :)

Pink Party

Whitney and I (a friend and survivor)


Good Times ;)
We had a super time on Friday night! I was surprised by a "SAVED the Ta Tas" cake! I could not have asked for a better night. I felt good and had so much fun. More pictures to come.....

Friends :)

Here I sit for my last chemo today. When I walked in here, I was so happy. I then found out one of the ladies who I had become friends with had passed away last week. The ironic thing is that I had hats for her that my Mom had made and planned on surprising her with them. Boy, it hit me like a ton of bricks and I was sobbing for what seemed like forever. This was very unexpected and her husband had been right be her side this whole time. Her name was Miriam and she had the best personality, her cancer had spread to her lungs and her spine.......I guess sometimes, sadly, cancer wins ;(

Speaking of surprises, I turned the corner to come down to the chemo room and there stood Beth, Traci, and Jenny. What great friends :) They had balloons, necklaces and sparkling grape juice! I really needed that after the news I had just been given.
This cancer stuff is hard and it is an emotional roller coaster! I am just thankful that I have wonderful people in my life (ALL of you) to help me make it through all this and still have a smile on my face.

The Wig ain't my gig!

OH my Gosh,
So...I either waited too long to get a wig or my hair was just so fabulous that nothing compares to it! I went to the Cancer Society and got my wig, but it just was not what I thought it was going to be. The lady who helped me said that it was rare to get wigs that were 100% human hair ( I must admit that is did "feel" good on my head) but the longer I wore it, the goofier I looked. :( I will try and wash it and maybe style it again but, don't count on any pictures of me with a wig on...I think the Halloween wig was it for me.I was so looking forward to having some hair, but I guess I will have to wait for the real deal.
I am so excited about tomorrow! After #6, we are having a PINK party with some of my friends to celebrate the last treatment. I usually feel good on Fridays so it should be really fun.

Funny pic

Here is a pic from our night at a Halloween party! This made me want to go and get a wig! It was the first time I had put on any wig through all this. I felt like a different person with hair again.(and it was a gross acrylic one at that ) I knew how much I missed my hair but, did not really realize how complete it made me. It was nice to go and be normal that night, as everyone else had on some bad hair too. We did not know a whole bunch of people so it made it extra fun just to be me again and not "cancer girl".

Halloween candy is evil!

I am feeling pretty good these days and only have some minor issues. I seem to be really on edge lately and think its just due to hormones (or lack there of) :( I don't think there is even a remedy for that, since I can no longer take any type of estrogen. I am in a "menopause" of some sort. I think I am way to young for that but....it is what it is :)

I have been eating Carson and Brooke's candy like crazy. I think it might be making me feel better :) That is my drug of choice these days.

Please keep my Dad in your prayers. He is doing well, but I know he has a long road ahead of him :)

Trick R Treat

WE are so blessed to live in such a great neighborhood! Everyone had such a great time and so many people were out. I think it had to be one of the best Halloweens ever! Brooke really loved carrying her pumpkin and walking up to each house, she could not say "trick or treat" but, did say thank you :) Carson was being too cool and he was running way ahead with all his friends.

I am feeling much better, still get tried easily and my mouth has lots of sores in it...but that will not stop me!

I am counting the days!